Monday, July 24, 2006

* * * (What A Good Way To Lie)


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What a good way to lie
What a nice heart to bruise
What a nice moment to lose
What a nice time to die

I've been wrong but silent
I've kissed all of your sins
Now I know what it means
To be fucked and violent

Damn it all, but your voice
Was kind and warm... Cold...
Made me do as I was told
I've never had any choice

A moment like this shit
Of your kisses and touches
My falls and your catches
You've made me like spit

Stepped on me, smiled
How good was I, when enslaved?
How I worried 'till felt faint?
And you, always so calm and mild...

I don't know why I have suffered
Because you made me love?
But you never had enough
I know, to you, I've never mattered

Who fucking hears me now?
Your eyes which don't give a shit?
Or your words which made me bleed?
- Shh... Honey, you're speaking too loud...

You've always been wrong
Damn it, I've always waited
As I realized that I am hated
Fuck, why did it take me so long?

I knew I had to break the border
And tell you everything you won't miss
To make it hurt, I'll end it with a kiss
I missed you, loved you, but it's over.

33 comments:

Unknown said...

Hi Hi HI
Good to hear from you again. I was getting worried about where you were.

I like your poem. It is different and very meaningful I used to write poetry when I was younger, but I got away from it and into other writing.

You just eat all the ice cream you want. :)

xianfu said...

hmm.. Sensual poem.. U kissed all the sins?... why d heck that dd write a loVE Poem? Hmm but it was gOOD.. it looks like a sad pOEM.. does it have any hidden agenda?... Let me write a haiku to amuse u all..

See it
Eat it
A FISH
:p... I suck in HaikU.. muahhaha

hOPE ya in THE BEST..

LOVE HOPE N JOY

TSaR

Edyta said...

PJ!
Thanx soooo much for your kind concern :) I'm sorry for my vanishing. ;)
Thanx for your kind words abt my poem :)
How vicious was i at that time? LOL

Yaaaaaay! Ice cream! Yeah BABY! LOL :D

Edyta said...

TSAR!
Sensual? Naaah. It's considered as a lyric cuz i found a melody for it & its like a song.
& nah, tsar, i ahvent broken up with anyone ;)
I wrote this last summer :)
Stay calm abt ur fav DD. & remember i am still waiting for u with super team of 5 year olds. To violate u. buahahahhaha.
DD,
The president of the mentality club ;)

Anonymous said...

hello edytasss. my flamess has written a juicy ass poem??? OMG!!! *cries* i love this shit, why? cuz it's sooo raw, full of emotion AND yaney (maybe i'm being cocky) feels very similar. when i read it, i automatically thought about my situtation with that whore:wonder boy!! damn those boys!!! this was amazing. i love it to bits. truly!! i just feel the same way, well, i think so : (. i think edytas capture all the shit we go through, very well. the part about being enslaved? i feel that happens to me when wb puts a spell over me...and i can't focus, i'm under their control, which is sooo SHIT!! cuz we're meant to be strong kick ass women. damn it!! also, the "i've never mattered" hits me hard. i think i can relate to that quite well...it involves my whole "feeling inaqeduate/like dirt crap". awwwww, *cries* edytas?? thanks so much for sharing this with us. i adore edytas' amazing poems!!!!

ps- just wanna thank you for your last comment to my comment on your last vice versa poem. i still get thoughts from your vv poem, flames, but i can't quite put it out there without sounding more weird!! LOL...but i'll try :). and the cambodia part?? awww, i'm so pleased you weren't sadden by my own experiences, i just wished they weren't that sad for you :(. also, i wanna thank you for your beautiful comment you left for sam's last brilliant post on cambodia (all of 'em were lovely) but the last one was very touching...it was so heartfelt. ya know? i could feel your sadness...somehow, all of that came to me and i felt soo emotional and just touched at how edytas could be soooo sadden by the ppl of cambodia's suffering. did that make sense? hope so LOL. AND, i LOVE how passionate flames is about women's rights, and human equality. YAY! makes me feel heaps about the wordl :). anyways, edytas is eternally sweet!! thanks heaps for all your positive energy. don't ever feel bad for vanishing (you ghost, you) LOL, i'm just so happy that you utter one word like "catslap" LOL. that's enough for me! and importantly as well: that you're superhotlyfine (very crucial)...i would feel sooo bad if you weren't superholtyfine LOL. and zexily gr8??? very crucial too :P. okies, edytas, yaneys is sooo short today? LOL. yyaaaaaaaaaaay *is proud*. i hope you're doing superhotlyfine & zexily great* again, this is one HOT poem. i mean, i feel like saying to wb, "Your eyes which don't give a shit?" very poweful edytas. i'm sooo proud (why??? am i a parent? your parent?) LOL. the weirdo is leaving *waves goodbye to everyone in here* who are also throwing rotten tomatoes at me. bitches :D LOL. go the flames!!! hehe

Anonymous said...

okies...not quite gone yet LOL. just wanna add: all men should read this & wheep, then prepare for ox castration? LOL. don't mess with edytas & yaneys, you hear that men??? be afraid. very.

Astronaut said...

Help castration! Well yanas sais i am the exception, i certainly hope so!

Yeah! Well done for dumping that oppressive bastard! Wipe out that fascist pig, ERADICATE IT! oops sorry about that, a very good poem i must say. The person has been shat on, like a tory shitting on a miner. I am glad the he or she, I actually don't know, it don't think it says, i am guessing that its a she, because i have heard more of females been in such oppressive situations than males, which is very sad, and should be stopped, i am always ready to assume any case though, whatever the case, the person who has oppressed this one in such a way is an absoloute monster. Once again, i love your poem. P&H!

Unknown said...

Thanks for your sweet comments. I was really having a bad day and I read what you and Yanas wrote, and I felt better. I actually smiled while reading from the two of you. Bless both of you forever.

Edyta said...

Yaney!
Thanx soooo much abt remembering my VV poem. That means sooo much to me :) Really, I appreciate your kind kind memory abt the asshole (me) & if u do have some thoughts abt this topic (from your life experience(i know u have loadssss)) then if ya like & if ur not lazy, so share it! it would be super sweet! yaaaaaay! goooo yaneys!

now abt this shiiiiiiiiiit. now. well, remember me saying i'd share some lyrics with ya? well, here they r. its supposed to be a song (lol) well, something like that. i did find a nice beat to this poem kinda thing.
& as we all know, most songs r abt what? yaaaay! u just answered the million dollar question: they r abt LOVE. it doesnt matter, happy love, unhappy love, physical love, mental love... its all abt LOVE. LOL. So i just went with the flow, ya know? LOL.
Well, thats all i'd liek to tell ya for now... I didnt break up with anyone & this even wasnt abt me. It was for those ppl who did suffer and... well... for someone to be able to relate to this balony :D lol :D
i just hope that yaney liked it :D LOL
CATSLAPS! & Hope ur superHOTLYfine & zexily gr8 :)

Edyta said...

PS. Yaney! Global castration all the waaaay! :D

Edyta said...

Samness!
"Yeah! Well done for dumping that oppressive bastard! Wipe out that fascist pig, ERADICATE IT!"
Can i eat this phraze, plz! It was soooo delicious & strong. Wooo Yeah. I feel as happy as a dancing elephant! Truly!
Sam, well, i didnt write it abt myself, though :) i wrote it to ppl who could relate to this & not feel... Alone?
Thanx, Sam, for your kind words! They mean a LOT.
P&H to you & yana. Always.

Edyta said...

PJ!
Me & Yana love to make you smile, isnt that right, Yaney? Therefore, I claim that its our duty to do so :D
& in reality, it's you who is forever sweet.
Have a wonderful day, PJ!

Anonymous said...

well... i think no comment edyta about this poem but ur words were so strong so deep ... any way how could u think like that.. i won't talk about it cuz i read ur friends comments so no need to explain i think u understand me :) well.. idunno.. i've shocked:P how could uuuuuuuuuu pffffff:P u know if u saw me last summer i think it wouldn't be what agood wayto lie it would be something sweet :) cuz u know ur ahmed and i am sure u understand me :) well i am giving up to give my comment about this poem ;) yeaaah loser:P but wait neveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeer don't even think :) i am sure iam so fuckin sure ur bf loves u so much i swear :)muaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah

xianfu said...

hmmm... wit Tsar... run out of energy today... causing riots took Tsar's energy away.. mauhahaha.. Ur team of 5 year-olds?.. trying to violate the mighty Tsar.. dun worry.. I HAVE a pack of kinder bueno in my pocket..r est assured everyone will get one.. ..... 5 4 3 2 1... ZZZZzzzZZZ...

I luv making dd's comment box ugLY..MJUHHahahahhAHhahhAH

Edyta said...

Yorkie:*~
I think everything is ok now, dont u?
As i told u, my innitial goal were the lyrics & u helped me partly in it. U know me, i do write loads of things when i am angry. even if i dont mean half of them :) or even all of them. i've never meant to make u mad/sad etc. but its just me who is an emotional brat who shows her emotions seldom & when she does she brings the whole place down LOL :D
Love u loads, Ahmed :) muahz :P now go away :P:P:P

Edyta said...

Tsar!
DD is also ambushed by her massiveness in ur comment box. LOOOOVE TO BE MASSIVE! MuAHAHAHAHA.
"I luv making dd's comment box ugLY..MJUHHahahahhAHhahhAH "
i dont see anything ugly, tsar. i do think that its rather sweet & cute (dont puke @ ur freshly cleaned floor) on the other hand... puke & drool away!
Ur fav DD :P

yana said...

edytas!! why of course i would remember the vv poem. the fact that it means so much to you? awww, that's soooo sweet to me. a dust like me? LOL. awww, you're too sweet. i honestly LOVE it, it's brilliant. i'm still amazed at how edytas can come up with these things. i mean, i don't mean to offend you or sound like a ageist?? but flames is soo young! you're what they call a wise old soul? LOL. well...i don't wish to bore you or your super sweet audience with my "thoughts" LOL. i'll spare 'em lucky folks, for now! muahahaha. awwww, that's soooo generous and brave of edytas to allow that LOL. seriously, i think you put it out there so well, that i would spoil it if i were to analyse it or try to relate it to my own personal experience. anyways, never mind me. i'm rambling! lol. wait...these are the lyrics you told me about????? reaaaaaaaaaaly??? that's soooo marvelous. seriously? i remember you telling me about it, but here it is!!! wow. and "i did find a nice beat to this poem kinda thing" i've always found the song writing process an amazing one cuz i couldn't figure out how you can pick a beat to go with the lyrics. it's amazing to me. ya know? a song is simply a poem sung, huh? well, that's what i think. omg...do you need anyone to sing it *hint hint* ME!! lol, jokes. i'd butcher it. it doesn't matter what it is, it's great and we love it. truly :D. ya the band, the darkness? they said that nowadays artists are afraid of singing about love, they're scared of using the actual word "LOVE" in their song, unless they're celine dion or mariah carey, then they don't go near it. isn't that odd? why not? it's not cheesy. oh yeesss, oh how i love to go with the flow, even better knowing that my flames does too! LOL. well...that's alright, edytas if it wasn't about you. i still identify with it...and that's what's matters atm, right? so we are able to relate to it, well, i know i did. i think so LOL. thanks for writing it, and sharing it with us. balony??? if by balony, you mean edytas gift of writing?? then yes, i quite liked the taste of it LOL. okies, i better leave now. i shall send you that game soon. i hope you're doing superhotlyfine today & zexily gr8. i also hope pjs is feeling better :D. p&h to you & sams! :D. go "the edytas" and here are some fresh catslaps. cheers, flames :D. boo yeah.

oh gawwwwwwwd, this is massive. LOL @ tsar's desire to ulgify this place LOL. i'll shall join him. we're soo bad.

yana said...

oh btw, yaney likes the catgirl??? i'd be a great feline. i really would. i would dispense catslaps everywhere i go. wait...aren't our catslaps a good thing, not a punishment? i'm confused. what a dumb cat. okies, ignore that, i just like that pic LOL

xianfu said...

dd is ambushed by her own massivveeness???.. how queer dd... muahahahah.. Does that mean, Dd is poisoned by her own delish cooking? ... how shockingly unliberal... muahaha.. is that a neocolonialism???... oo.. no wonder Dd is hiding for all this time... She is preparing a massive global castration plan to be executed?... hmm.. I shall spread flyers to all the males out there on ur behalf dd.. U own Tsar his fav ice cream.. dun 4get!!!... muaahhahahah... Hmm, strangely, Dd reminds me of cannibal I mean baby shark in the great white shark...


ok.. Tsar is rushing deadline... he will be massivee..muahahaha.. maybe on the next time....muahahahah...

Astronaut said...

Thanks for the comments! Yeah i agree, i cannot see the peace, nor the happiness anywhere really, i wished hate was not the fuel of choice, but nowerdays it seems to be the dominant one, hate is a fuel worse than any fossil fuel, and pollutes the world in a way no other substance can. "WTF is going on with our world?", i couldn't have put it better myself. Let us all hope that the hate stops soon. Peace and happiness!

PS-I like the manga style catgirl picture you put up. I love japanese animation.

Edyta said...

Yaaaaneeeeys!
Yeaaaaaaah! These r the lyrics that i have told u abt! I've found a beat to them. Well, i dunno if it sounds ok, it should be not too bad, ya know. But edyta is an awful singer.... But what the heck? Singing is good for the sould, just like writing LOL. I know, its not too good for my neighbours or to ppl who sourround me :P buuut bear with me LOL. I am eviiiiiiiiiiiiil. mauahahhaha.

"they said that nowadays artists are afraid of singing about love, they're scared of using the actual word "LOVE" in their song, unless they're celine dion or mariah carey, then they don't go near it. isn't that odd?"
yeaaaah. i know this band. they said that? yaaaay for the darkness :D ya know, some "love" songs r just too banal & stupid. i cant stop quoting this: (a song by jennifer lopez & ll cool j (or how to spell it? LOL))called... control myself, i think; let me quote & give ya a nice laugh:"The after party is in my body & baby ur invited" (?) or even better: She said her name was Sheida I can tell her mommy feed her" (???) how can he tell anything at all? maybe my daddy fed me? maybe my uncle? WTF??? how idiotic can get? they cal 'em LOVE songs? Well, if its a love song then i am a bag of shit. (well i am)
Anywhooo. Thats exactly hy i tried not to write abt love or things like that. I hate this lyric. LOL. But it is hard shit, aint it? LOL I do feel that its emotional. LOL.

Thanx soooo much Yana for ur sweeeeeeeeetest interested in my dust. :) awwwwww! i feel soooo spesh. Yana? Hope ur superHOTLyfine & zexily gr8 ;)
p&h alwayssss! (to u & samssss) :D

Edyta said...

Tsar!
"ok.. Tsar is rushing deadline... he will be massivee..muahahaha.. maybe on the next time....muahahahah... "
Holy shit, tsar, ur always scaring the living shit outta me :|
LOL!

Edyta said...

Sams!
Yeeeeah! Goooo Mangas! BTW, Sam, can u draw mangas? I think i can, a little ;) goooo mangas :)(oh nooo, i'm repeating myself :))
"i wished hate was not the fuel of choice, but nowerdays it seems to be the dominant one, hate is a fuel worse than any fossil fuel, and pollutes the world in a way no other substance can. "
This should be quoted, i swear!
Once again, i claim that Samness is a genius!
p&h to u & yana!

Anonymous said...

I'm so not up to date :)
Sorry, I was away, u know ;)
Sms was the only way to stay in touch :)
Luv ya for ur dirty poems about love :* (hope u don't mind for calling them so :)

Edyta said...

Agata
Nah, guess ur not off schedule at all. ;) not so long ;) missed ya anyway (not) LOL :D
Thanx for calling my poem dirty. LOL they trulty r. :D

yana said...

bridesssssss! omg...it feels like an eternity that i haven't been calling you my brides? trip down memory lane? it was edytas'corpse bridess comment that started the whole thing LOL. awwww, i'm so glad you found a beat to 'em...that seems to hard! yaney is probably tone deaf or prone to breaking windows with my extraordinary voice LOL. yeaaaaaaaaah, i couldn't agree more: "singing is good for the soul" AND writing, why of course. so is food! LOL, evil edytas singing her neighbours to death? lol. what an image. i think they're lucky LOL.

justin hawkins of the darkness, yeah? the lead said something like that on the radio one day...and i thought it was very interesting and true. it's seen as cheesy, and that's so bad! have you heard their song, "Love is only a feeling" OMG, love it. the stupid ones are the corny ass ones by boy bands? LOL. omg...put me in a room, lock me up, blast it on the radio, and i would surely die in like 2 secs LOL. okies, for starters, ya know how much i hate j-lo...that song is ridiculous, and edytas?? "how can he tell anything at all? maybe my daddy fed me? maybe my uncle? WTF??? how idiotic can get?" LOL!!!! waaaaaaaaaaaaa, i will wake my mum up (she is in the next room fast asleep). that was hilarious!!! that song is not a love song, let alone a decent song. utter crap. "a bag of shit" shuuuttttttttt up, will you quit that! LOL. naughty edytas :(. makes me sad :(. you're a bag of pot pouri, i love it. do you? but i think this is NOT shit or junk at all. remember? what oscar wilde said?? bad poetry comes from genuine feelings...but at least it's from the depths of your heart, and that's all that matters. i truly believe that. who cares about anything else. i know how emotional edytas can get, as can i! it's okay...it really is. just know that you never have to do it alone. like crying session? sooo much as a group, heheh.

noooo waaaaaaaaay, it's my pleasure. i love here. thanks so much for all your interest in my stuff, your kindess & support. you're too sweet! don't forget that, ok? you are spesh...and it's not dust or dirt LOL. too funny. thanks you flames, i always have to thank you for everything. i hope you're superhotlyfine & zexily gr8 today :D. p&h 2 u & samness.

ps- i'm very sorry that this is huge. it must be hella tedious. seriously...it's okay, i would be bored out of my mind too. truly. zzzzzzzz LOL

Edyta said...

Yana!
Thanx sooo much for reminding me abt our beloved old tradition! corpse bride for life! i still remember that cartoon, hilarious :D & yeaaaaaaah! i do agree abt ur view on j.lo. j.lo? where do they come of with this? this means that i am e.lo? pffffff... right.
also, i like the name of that band, the darkness, how mysterious, huh? ;)
" i will wake my mum up (she is in the next room fast asleep)."
ooooh soorry! i didnt mean to! but our "fav celerities" truly make us "happy" as laughing our asses off! LOL!
"evil edytas singing her neighbours to death? lol. what an image."
eviiiil indeed! hehe. killing them all slowly & painfully.

Ps. I know i may sound off topic but i have just seen a movie called Hard Candy. OMG! I'm still speechless. Global castration has started. LOL! Mind the fact that the movie was made in 2006. lol. dicks? r u scared? LOL. me & my fav brides shall soon be in our utopia: penisless world! LOL!
Dipsticks! This was designed for Yana's eyes :P
hope ur.... YEAH! Superhotlyfine & zexily gr8 <--- important matter!

xianfu said...

Dd...THOUght u hve uPDATED!!!... WaIT.. U HavEnt.. and that mAkes Tsar dissapoinTED.. AND he Sorry Tsar... is goING TO MaKE UR coMMENT Box lookS ugLY.. TASTeless with his deLISH ComMent.. pREpaRE FOR untoWARDS.. UsLess mAsiSVE.. NEss that Tsar giveS... HopE U Don go bLIND AFTER this.. iF you So...TSAR will take all THe kINDer buEnos..mUAHAHA.. LeAVE U wiTH noThing.. pErHaps a chUNK OF 1 kINDer BUeNO... LOoKING BacK.. tsar changes hiS mind.. tSAR ISS GONNA give nONE... MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA.... :d.. He IS so GREAT.. MOre SalUTES!!! MORE MORE MORE... *DrOOL!!!* muAHHAHAHAHAHAH... okAY.. wHATS NExt?.. More rioTS?. hMM.. THinK BaCK.. tsar is GOnna SPare U THE Massiveness.muahahaha.. *yawn&... muahaha

Edyta said...

Tsar
Awwww! I am always a disappointment. Ger used to it, TSAR! LOL!

Edyta said...

get*
shit. the only thing that wont disappoint me: i aint getting a better vision. thats for sure. blindness for life. LOL!

Unknown said...

Love your new look. Hey, you are getting too many comments under one post. It takes forever for the comment section to load. Hint Hint Hint.

Edyta said...

Thanx PJ!
It does? I'm sorry :| I'll try to update more often. ;)

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