Saturday, April 01, 2006

...Less...

Hey. Since I'm outta inspiration over the last few weeks, I'd like to share something specific with you. I have no idea will u understand it or not. But this doesn't matter now, does it? Everyone has his own way of understanding and that's why I'm kinda interested in your interpretations.

I was watching 'Lost' maniacally. I've learned a lot of things. I'm not going to mention them here or now or anywhere because it's something I'll leave for myself. (Like you care lol)



So here it is. I wrote it last summer. I just was feeling Less. This is how I described my feeling:

Less
Less than anything in here
Less than anything in this room
Less than rubbish
Less than words
Less than gestures
Less than pleasure
Oh, much less...
Even less than pain
Place number
123699245
In your dictionary
Less than trouble
123699246
Mistake
That's my position
For you
Flu's position is
123699247
Thank You

32 comments:

Astronaut said...

It is a horrible feeling when i feel i have no inspiration, because it feels like i never can get it back, if you feel like this, dont worry, it WILL come back, your soul is strong and indestructable. I love your poem of course, do the numbers have a significant meaning to you? Reminds me of that film 2046, the number had a huge signaficance to the main character, which is hard to understand, i guess this case may be indifferent.

15
2

No need to understand the last bit, the story is too long...

Edyta said...

Sam
I felt like a 123699246. They don't really have a meaning, i guess.
Why have i posted it along with 'Lost'? Well, there also numbers had a big meaning. I dunno the meaning yet coz i haven't finished watching it, but i sure will.
Then thank you kindly for ur support.
Sometimes I just need to get over it. Nevermind me.
P&H

xianfu said...

as u know dd......my brain although hasn't melted yet...it's already not functioning at its peak lvl.. lol...

LOst?? the number that d dude Hurley has in LOst is 4 8 15 16 23 42 ... hmm...stiLL try 2 figURE it out...
anyWAY...LOst is really INSANELY CRAZY!!!....... I love that show.... Im toTALLy addicted wiT It!

anyway, back to ya pOem... LEss gusto... less enthusiasm.. basically, I feel that ur feeling bored..and tat day was a bad day... And wit nothing to do...(princess does not do anything else...lol) u just scribbled down ur thoughts in a poem... and d numbers??.. well...it may connected to something... I duNNO.... Tsar doesn't know anything.. hehe Im not Einstein... or some sort of Maths Genius.. but ur numbers are connected with 12369924(x+1) starting from 123699245...
yet.....I still can't figure it out... I can't even complete my essay yet!!!... guess my brain is still blurr, suffering from a trauma coz by the hEAT...

aarhhhhhhhhhhh.......... fEEling eVIl now...

jOYS & LOVes

ps: nice talking to ya tat day too..how were ur all 4 husbands??(lol)

Edyta said...

xianfu
hurray for tsar!
abt the poem, i wrote it last summer. a long time ago, but i remember writing it at night/morning call it as u like. a kinda lunatic thing lol

yessssssssss!!!!!! ur also watching Lost? Shit, I'm totally addicted, espesh to Sayid. Damn his hot. HO-OT! I've stopped at the Season 2 17th episode & drooling all over it. lol
hubbies getting replaced. cant have the same ones all the time. queen/proncess/royalty is getting bored. bleh. lol
cya round

xianfu said...

Dun 4get...tsar too is a mind reader...
yeah...a little lunatic thing too....

I was following Lost from season 1... still remember d plane crashes.. how d pilot got eaten by a monster.. "p... lol..brings back memories.. lol!!! ...well...ur addicted to sayid..Im into Kate.. a toTAL H-O-T gal.. her lOOKs...fiGURE...ohh man... but s**** is bETtER... Ohh man...Im onli at season 2 ep 6... darn!!!

SO SLOW HERE... BUt...I will enjoy it anyhow... *princess*.... author can't be wrong wit spelling.. lol!!!

ya cYA ArOund...
tAKE CaRE.......

jOYS %Lves

Edyta said...

xianfu
"*princess*.... author can't be wrong wit spelling.. lol!!!"
shit. dont laugh at blind ppl, tsar :P~
"jOYS %Lves"
Did u mean LOves? :P~ i wanted to do that for a long time lol how awful of me lol

xianfu said...

HMM, my wish doesn't come true... arrh!!! Ok ok ok... I will update...how harsh of you... lol!! Hmm...I dun laugh at blind ppl u know... As u know, Tsar always HELP THE BLINDS... In order to make our princess more perfect(I was laughing sarcastically)... I need to beef up ur spelling...which I dun think my spelling is good either...lol!!!

Yeah it means LOVES.. Lves=Loves...
Dun feel awful of urself.. although... it might seem so... haha

Dun bite me... But if ya insist.. spare my face yeah?? lol... a bite at my butt sounds great.. lol...jz kidding.. haha...

JoYS and LOves... = Kegembiraan dan CInta...(in melayu)

YO...CIaoz!!

Edyta said...

xianfu
Mornin' lol
My wish didnt come true? Damn, but it's ok, it will soon. I promise.
It will feel good to say Kegembiraan dan Cinta spesh to u, tsar. I already feel good.
Abt ur update, don't feel irritated, just tryin' to make u feel... well... Needed & Important :P
Bleh ;D~
Loads of Kegembiraan dan Cinta 4 ya, Tsar. (i hope i don't have a funny accent ;P~ lol)

Anonymous said...

hey....as i told u woke up and nothing to do feel so good for u .. but so afraid of my results althought i am sure that i did my best i swear... :| but i know u r with me and i am with u :) i am watching u thnx for ur support :) and here is my poor poem kinda stupid but at least i tried :P < its a nice feeling when you know that some one loves you some one misses you some one needs you but it feels much betterwhen you know that some one never ever forgets you :)u know ... thats me ... in my life i learned how to love how to work hard how to be honest how to smile how to be strong how to be faithful how to forgive but i couldn't learn how to stop thinking of you > this only for u ..... :) opps ... u can't imagine how much i... :P shit shit shit ( not romantic damn :P )lets go to our street :P

xianfu said...

Morning?? it's 1756 here now.. anyhow.. MORNning...eaten breakfast???

Yeah I know u feel good.. :p OK...thanks for making me feel needed and important.. lol!!!

Hmm...Im sure u will have A TOTALLY WACKY ACCENT.."p..

Hmm..make sure u cook me 1st.. lol.. Hmm...as an Insane ppl...not sure ur a cannibal... haha Im fine..
hope ya fine too.. :p

Edyta said...

Yorkie :*~~
Shit! I hate u! Go away! Omg... Ur the best! Realy really ;)~
And... abt ur exams... I told u, i was the checking commision and i gave u all excellent :P It's gonna be ok, I promise. Love u loads;*~
And thanx for ur poem ;)~ tasty. :P dunno what to say asshole...
i feel cannibalic today. better stay away from me lol
Love u loads (again):*~ *Muahz*(lotsa)

Edyta said...

xianfu
well... it's 1.16 PM here lol
So yeah... mornin' :P
Anyway.. u think i'd have a wacky accent... :P i'd try not to :P~
Cook u? No, i like raw tsars. Hope ur crown won't get stuck in my teeth. How disgusting of me lol

Edyta said...

damn... did i just say that?

yana said...

manguesssss lost all her brain cells cuz i don't get it! arggggggg. *rips chucks of hair out* lol. mangues is sorry that she hasn't been around flooding ur blog ; (. and also about your lack of inspiration. damn it. *cries* i wish i could help. let me know :). now back to the piece, i like how your mind works, meaning this is special to you and when someone like me comes along and doesn't fully comprehend it then it just goes to show that it means something totally different to me. therefore, you're right! we all interpret your poems/stories in our own unique way. that didn't make sense. also, it reminds me of the magic triangle: 3-4-5 . this also reminds of me of what pythagoras believed "all things are number". lol. i just read sam's post & and although i don't understand it, it doesn't mean i dislike it. no way, i understand that it's significant to him. and yes edytasssss, you are very useful!!! lol. you should be pleased :). lastly, i wanna say that i like 8 cuz it was blissful, no worries @ all. 14? i equally love & hate. why? cuz i have this memory of my late dad. 14 is the last number i have that is associated with him, so i hold it dear but also i hate it cuz he's gone forever. does that make sense? sorry, too much writing. this isn't my blog! sorry, i'm flooding this place. punish me ; (. hope my cannibal edytasssssss are well. hope so. i wish you luck, love, respect. peace & happiness, hippie! lol. and a bag of chiquitas to go with our scoobert & alphabet feast :P. thanx edytassssss. take care ;).

ps-LOST IS HOT! lol. just watched it the other day! soooooo juicy. i hate how they leave you wanting more. gimme more answers!! see? we're all manical when it comes to lost. sayid? lol. he's HOT arite :P.

so sooooooorrrrrrrrrryyyyyyy *cries*. hope you live! if you make it, then mangues would be happy. no need to respond, i feel awful now. damn mangues to hell.

yana said...

LOL. sorry. no more massivvvvveenesssss!

yana said...

mangues luvs the pic. luv it. also, me luv edytassss with all my hormones too. lol!! sam is soooooo right: your soul is strong & undestructable and soooo beautiful. just divine. truly.i kidnapped mine so it's not mine. mine's lost! lol. thanks for everything, my dragon hippie :). don't let anyone suck or spit your soul out. i won't have it!!!!

yana said...

*indestructable. lol. i'm so dyslexic! ok, now mangues is leaving. sad rat.

xianfu said...

ERhhemmm.... A RAW TSAR???
HOPE MY CROWN WONT BE STUCKED AT UR TEETH??..

now thats a cannibalism... wonder WHERE do u learn THAT my princess???
HOW UNPRINCESS.... LOL!!!!

Yeah...you jz say that with GUSTO AND CREAM... haha....

ROGER THAT!!!

xianfu said...

personally, I feel my poem sucks!!!..... IT REALLY SUCKS THOUGh... rIght???

Edyta said...

manguesSsSsSs
"LOL. sorry. no more massivvvvveenesssss!"
nooooooooooo! i'd lose my point of living!
ur massiveness is highly appreciated. why? coz i love it.
"and yes edytasssss, you are very useful!!!"
*cries* waaaaaaaaaaaaa dragon is sooo touched.
anyway, i feel so good at the moment. everything is indeed in such harmony, i dunno why, maybe i'm going crazy (yeah i think that's the reason) just feels like everything right where it belongs. so, yeah, e-dytas r fine. hope rambling/talent/protein queens r super fine too. which reminds me, here have some ssssssssss. u can have some 777777 too. why only alphabet? my sources say that numbers r tasty too. and they r sooo right. lol
I'm also very greatful to U and Sams for letting me feel useful & needed! Ur the BEST! totally HOT & HIPPIE! lol
Once again, love u with all of my molecules lol
P&H

Edyta said...

manguesSsSsSs
MASSSSSSSSIVE. but certainly feels good. Hope rat isnt sad anymore. Here, have some 88888, cuz i hear u like it.
And a viewers request : Could bring ur Wolf back? Scoobert Clone misses it. lol

Edyta said...

xianfu
Tsaaar! Greetings, ur majesty!
Ur poem does not suck but since ur asking, my advice would be to continue it and make it a bit longer. To make the pleasure of reading it last longer. Yay!
It's raining outside now. I love rain. lol
"HOW UNPRINCESS.... LOL!!!!"
well, yup, totally unprincessy. i agree. in fact after feeling like a cannibal, i feel like a general. DROP AND GIVE ME 50! lol
Hope ur fine tsar, waiting for ur news ;)~
Love&Respect&kegembiraan dan cinta
i feel good pronouncing it lol

xianfu said...

YEs... gREEtings!!!

My poem sucks... totally... haha.. I dun mind.. PLeasure of reading a pOEM??... hmm..thats a good one..
RaiN!!...... I loVe rAIn!!!....it's d time where u miss someone d most...dunno why.. I usually will sit back at a corner..looking at d windows.. arrh...thats so... Me... :p

well d news.. nothing happened yet... well...have to keep waiting for d right time to strike.. :p
Im luCKy??..well Im!!... hehe...well, what can a Tsar do??

ohh man...ur gonna watch another episode of LOST???...GOnna kill ya for tat!!! lol...jz kidding..
I LOOOOOOVVVVVVVVVVEEEEEEEEEE LONG COMMENT...:p

Yeah....IM SUPER FINE HERE...... JZ FINISHED WELL almost my project....now I got Chemistry quizze to worry about lol!!!
dun bother my frenz..he is d same too... :p..

YEAH SIR!!!.......50 it's!!! 1,2,3..........I faint... lol!!!

Yeah...take ur time in feeling good pronoucing them..hehe...

joYS &LOves...

Edyta said...

xianfu
Huh, i love rain too! How romantic of me lol not that i really am a romantic ass... but hey, u know... i also loooooooove rain & thunder and lightning lol this is sooo weird, cuz i know that some ppl r basically afraid of those things, but yeah... whatever, nwm me!
i feel so fucked today, like someone just stepped on me and spited on me, dont ask, cuz i dunno why... maybe it's becoz of the weather and yeah... it's sooo grusome & foggy. damn.
massive comments, huh? shit. i love them too, such a nice feeling reading someone's HUGE comment. how lame of me, anyhowz, HUGE comments make me feel important.
Shit, i dunno what am i talking abt.
DROP AND GIVE ME ANOTHER 50!
Love&Respect (loads of it)

xianfu said...

aaarhhh....

*yawn* jz woke up from my sleep... lol.. My wish does come true.. lol..It was a long dream.. still wanna lay down at my comfortable bed.... hehe

DD is romantic???.... NOw thats princess... lol...Tsar still remembers how UNprincess ur.. lol
Yeah....sometimes..ppl are afraid of those..buT IM not!!... hehe

U feel so fucked??? icic... I feel FINE..UNTil I know that the PRECIOUS ELECTRICTY WAS GONE AGAIN!!!! HEAT HEAT HEAT... F*ck d skol!!! OK, I won't ask... coz as u know, who spits and steps on a princess will be killed immediately..lol

MassIIIVVEEE COMMents???... U want it??..come and get it... lol... Yeah...huge comments really make ppl feel like their are being appreciated... :)

AnoTHer 50...???!!! 1, 2, 3,..4,...5...6,....7,8.... I faint again.. lol!!!

JOYs and&loVes...
tAKe cARe.. hope ya Will bEtter

Edyta said...

xianfu
u should share ur dream with me in order to make a ver important analysis. dream analysis, that is. this is URGENT! lol
cuz i believe that dream have something powerful inside :P i have crazy dreams but i don't always remember them. sometimes i wish i could. *cries* (not)
the electricity is gone again? shit damn... if ur so protective over ur brain and ur afraid that it can melt, come to lithuania, it can freeze! lol (bad advertising, huh?) lol
Love&Respect, Tsar ;)~

xianfu said...

DD..... OK...u gave me a brilliant reviews....

Ur a seer now too??... lol... Hmm, lately, I couldnt remember my dream much often..maybe coz of d busy work...
Dun cry... :p... Here, Tsar gives u a hug.. lol!!

Yeah, the electricty is gone again... Lithuania here I come!!!... personally I love cool place..but....

how could I miss the FOOD AND THE HOStility!!!.... It's so amazing back there(Im good at promoting MalaYsia).... :).. But I would like 2 exprience lithuanian culture... lol...

nah...u didn't do any bad advertising.. lol!!!

joYS n loVEs pRIncess... and princess=puteri in mElayu...
daily bits of lesson from Tsar ")

Edyta said...

xianfu
"Dun cry... :p... Here, Tsar gives u a hug.. lol!!"
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaawwwwwwwwwwwww... damn DD feels so much better lol

Puteri is a gorgeous word. I love it. Cannibal Puteri sounds like an awesome nick. lol thanx loads tsar for ur most valuable lessons.

am i a seer? yes i am. how creepy but true. if u want ur dreams iterpretated, u know who to turn to. lol I feel so useful. lol
and yeah, wait for me in malaysia. hiding already? lol
L&R

xianfu said...

glad 2 know u feel much better now.. lol.... and ur MASSSIVVVVVEEEEE commEnt... jz give me a kick to my head!!!....

Cannibal Puteri???.... lol... Ur welcome..Tsar always please to teach Princess DD... ")

Great to know that u feel urself are useful... Im doing charity here.. hehe... lol..kidding
I will wait for ya at Malaysia... nope I ain't hiding yet... lol...

bRing some Lithuanian's food too when ya stop by..,lol..

*thinking*.....should I give u a massssiiiiivvvvveeee comment back??
*nodded* hehe.....

Ur a dictator remember??... I wonder how many personalities hidden in urself... Princess, seer, cannibal. dictator..general... what more??.... lol!!!

U got Windows XP...thats good...way better than mine...
AND U got to use d skol computer??? thats awesome.. free internet usage!!!
MS EXCEL... I wish Im good at that... BUt Im know...entering those formulas can jz send the most gentleman into cannibal... Ohh man, I really hate those smokers... HATE THEM!!!! f*ck them all.. Boring teachers don't bore me much... U jz hv to know how to find a corner and jz fall asleep.. like me... But I dun do that now..without d electricity... I jz sweat..and that makes me feel hot.... We should really support Malaysia Government Anti Smoking Campaign...lol... haha

HEAT+HOT= DISASTER!!! lol... wait..I hope my brain aint melting yet...
(thnks God it was restored back again this morning)

I dun hv computer class.. how bored..!! I used to love that!!! I guess ur library will be very big... since mine could onli fit around 100 ppl perhaps??

Me too..almost fall asleep in my melayu class... ALmost!!! But I stay awake all the time.. I got sooo MUCH of respect to that teacher... Thanks CIkgu Rohana!!! lol How could u fall asleep duRING LITERATURE CLASS??

U still feeling headache.. dun tell me u fainted again in d class... and hows d pressure? (Im serious).. lol!!!

Raining??...ur wet??? haha... U should be like me.. wait at d skol...wait for d rain 2 stop... but if sarah was gone... I might cycle through d rain.. Ppl jz keep on talking during d rain.. which strangely I like it and hate it at d same time.. how weird am I??

AT LEAST!!! Lithuania is COOL...rain jz makes it cOOLer... unLike her..
U started another diary??? I wanna revive my diary back(offline)...jz that kinda busy.. well...I need to buy a book 1st... lets wait and c... hehe YEAH..EVERYONE GETS EXICTED doing diary... and how could we keep those "peeping" toms from reading ours diary??...lol... Ohh man... I still dun hva holidays... Easter bunny??.. USED to hear it here.. BUt I never really got to celebrate it.. Easter Day is d day Jesus reborn?? I dunno....

do tell me princess dd... ur hibernating now??... thats so u.. lol... jz dun sleep for 24/7...
which means u won't update ur blog.. and it will affect all of us.. it's like a domino effects... Your're so IMPORTANT..,lol!!!

Ur not awful enough.. It's massive though...I have 2 spend some time in reading it..lol I dun fall asleep reading comments!! I LOVE COMMENTS!!! Ur gonna fall asleep while reading comments?? esp d maSSIVEE ones...??!!!.... Hmm, I will write a shorter and more simple comment next time.. hehe


take care......
jOYS and lOves...
TSAR...

xianfu said...

NOW THATS MASSIVVVVVEEEEEEEE!!!!!!! lol........

TSAR...XIAN...:p

Edyta said...

xianfu
*drooling*
mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
ssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss
iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii
vvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvv
eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
lol i love it
oh u just wait :P and in time i shall have my revenge. how dreadful.

xianfu said...

I shall wait then...haha

 

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